long week

So it has been a pretty long week for me. Work was pretty busy all week long. Which is really bitter sweet. I am tired from it but on the Brightside I made  lots of money! :) I am off for the next todays and I will be relaxing, preparing for what is to come next week. Free pancake day at my job. I absolutely dread this day every year. The day is designed for us to give away free pancakes and in return we receive donations for the kids with cancer. If only it was that easy right? But of course nothing never goes accordingly when something is free. That day consists of 100s of kids that come in order water and pancakes and don't donate or tip. So we pretty much work for free. Kids and teenagers are also the worse. They come before school, during school, and of course at 4pm all hell breaks loose. Were packed from 5:30 am all the way till we stop serving free pancakes at 10pm. Last year and the year before I worked 14 hours straight. I only made $200 last year -__- I was pissed. That's horrible I should have made at least $350. 

I was so tired after it was ridiculous.  This year I am probably going to come in like at 7am and work till about 4 since I have school! :) I am so excited that I have an excuse to not have to work that entire day. You should have seen me at work the other day running around saying haha to my boss and everyone who has to work the entire day.  I was like aha suckers have fun lol. So yea people ihop has free pancakes next to Tuesday but don't waste your time going. It is only 3 pancakes you can make it at home. Your going to go wait 30 min to eat 3 pancakes and make the servers life more miserable lol.

losing a close one

So I just found that my  best friend has liver cancer and shes at her 4th stage already. They found out yesterday. I don't know how to feel. The doctors told her she has maybe 4 more months to live. Shes only 25. I have no emotions right now, I guess it hasn't set in it. That girl has been my back bone, my big sister, my mentor, she pulled me through. We met under horrible circumstances but we pulled through together. We went to sleep talking and woke up laughing, for over 2 years. We did our time together. The only person I trusted in there. (prison that is) I got all a year before her and I promised her I would always be there. I kept my word. I wrote her had phone conversations with her. When she got out I was right there waiting on her. She lives in Tampa so we couldn't hang out all the time, but I always made it my business to go there atleast once a month. Now her moms calling me saying that she has liver cancer? How can that be? I was just talking to her and she was fine. She amazes me still because she still laughing and she has so much faith shes making all of us believe and have hope and faith. She is so strong and I believe you can over come this .. she is the strength in all of us. I just pray she gets better. I cant lose her.

Tired

Iam tired!  I can not wait to go on my vacation. Work and School and having some type of social life is draining me. I have only one day a week I can sleep in and that's Thursday. It sucks I need more sleep. Anyways im planning a get away as soon as this semester ends. Im trying to go on a cruise. Hopefully I am able to book a ticket soon so I can get out of here. If not then Miami I will be. Shopping, spending , shopping, spending, beaches, sleeping, eating. Yeees I cant wait. OOh yea its Valentines day this weekend im excited. Im excited because I asked for Michael Kors watch and I cant wait to have it! I better get it or I will not talk to my boyfriend for 1 week! SO if I don't get a watch he's in big trouble. I asked for 3 things a watch, my car windows tinted, and a full spa day... he said I couldn't have all 3 -__- . So I asked for 2 out of the 3 haha! I know I sound like a spoiled brat. Oh well I don't care. Im literally  just talking about nothing because I have nothing to talk about. I don't even feel like blogging to be honest. Ok im done talking bye.

You cant fix what cant see its the soul that needs surgery.

Beyoncé  has a song on her new album that I am absolutely obsessed with. Its basically about image. How women  and girls today all worry about how they look , and their self esteem. How everything on tv and magazines say skinny is better or having big boobs and a small waist and hips and a butt is how every women is suppose to look like. Its something society has been struggling with for years.

I don't think it should be like that. It sucks you know that girls think what they look like is not good enough. How people starve them selves to be skinny because they're worried about what other people think. How all the women on tv is completely flawless and perfect. People aren't made perfect and flawless. Everybody cant have that body perfect shape. How woman are spending thousand of dollars just to fix there imperfections so the eye of the society can them for the "It Girl". Nowadays nothing else matters just looks. Who has the latest Michael Kors bag or the nicest car. Blah Blah just be you it's easier.

Love your self for who you are. "Perfection is a disease of a nation" That statement couldn't have been said better. It is true pretty hurts, and its a job.